I have processed some of the films I took in Latvia. Outcame - nothing good. Can see from photos how appareantly uninspired I was or more likely trying to do something what is not my thing - I've been looking on too many contemporary photographers being at univerisity on photography degree. so more i learn, less i know. i can honestly say, that before when my mind about photography was wide open, i was better I wasnt scared/worried/anxoius to take photo of this and that to disturb person then and now, and just to take photo because it looks fantastic, now I feel like it is almost like a stamp on my forehead that if i study photography, i must be a amazing photographer, every single shot i take must be goooood. before I was just "it's my hobby, I like tot ake photos!" ... Eh, I don't know what I am doing with my life, I know this is what I want to do and I like, but seeing what kind photos get's at the top class, I can't. I DISLIKE it very much. Especially, when I have no inspiration to do all these wahwahwah projects at uni. I feel so rubbish, I am not proud of my work and photos at all anymore. Moreover when my close relative has told me that thinks my new photos aren't that good as before, and when a close friend honestly told me he doesn't like my photos that much anymore either. It happened over this Easter break, I was more crushed about my relative than friend's saying,because a friend had sort of comparing/idea/concept why he says that, but when a close family member says, I was upset.